As I type each
word, I anxiously stare at everything around me, fearing anything might find my
mistake on the keyboard. My eyes are now stuck in the water bottle next to me.
Whew, the bottle is not watching me at all.
But that
notebook has been on my desk since last month. That girl on the front page
seems to be looking at me. I hate those eyes, those blue penetrating eyes on
me. Though I try to evade her look, I have no choice but to make eye contact. I
wonder if she is the reason I can’t type nothing- I mean anything.
Step, step,
step.
The endless wave
of stairs approaches me as I face it directly. I must take every single step in
a perfect manner. It seems ending but endless. Sisyphus.
Game Rules:
1. Get to the end of the stairs
2. Use your steps evenly
I start with the
right foot. First step, second step, third step, and so on. Am I balancing
between both feet? Maybe I put more pressure on the 13th step than the other
steps. What should I do? Okay, that was my left foot. Now I have to put more
pressure on the 20th step so that the overall power I spend for each foot is
even.
Wait, is anyone
watching me?
Something blue
seems to be shimmering in the corner. I try to avoid it. I firmly put my steps
towards the 20th step, balancing my power on the feet.
Finally! I have
just typed another word. Is it the right word for the context? Does this word
properly represent twenty different words that I have intended?
I erase the
word. I go down the stairs again. But what if that girl on the note saw me
erasing the word? I can clearly see the blue light at the end of the stairs.
I re-type the
same word. I go up to the 20th step of the stairs again. But I don’t think this
is the right word there. Am I allowed to erase it again? I have already come
down and gone up once. I look around, find no one watching me, and go
downstairs. But the eyes!
If it were not
for those blue eyes, I would finish everything quickly and completely. I should
burn them someday.
Now, I can’t.
I’m not done
with the game yet.
